from Sector Lights
4)
My lighthouse is in Dungeness.
There are two. The old and the new.
Yes you can read about history, but
you can only live in the past.
I have decided to write letters to
the lighthouse and throw them into
the sea. Everything else is illusion.
We all fall down.
These letters will be destroyed.
The old and the new. I will learn nothing
and neither will you. Yes, you can read
about history. But you can only live
on the path.
& watch the rain falling. Falling into
the sea. Watch the rain falling.
Falling into the sea.
6)
I is inside and outside. I am outside.
I am only inside when I am staring at
the sea. I throw stones into the sea.
Rocks.
The rock is in my and, and the
rock is in my &. The rock. There
is a dog in me. It barks. It has bitten
and it will bite again.
In me a dog drowned in the sea.
A dog drowned in the sea in me.
It was white. The dog was black
and white.
The dog was black in me. The sea
in me a dog drowned. The sea in me.
A dog drowned in the sea in me.
A dog drowned in the sea. A dog.
7)
This speak kills love. What speak?
Exactly. Now fold your thoughts and
put them in a drawer. I gift this to you,
my fingernails and hair. Now I am
yours, completely.
This speak is our weapon against
what’s granted. It is my knife, and I
will never let it go. Even if I have to
hold it in my mouth when you’ve
cut off my arms.
Crossed fingers/severed hands.
A votive tied around a tree.
Language erodes first. Regimes
create nonsense. Leaving words
meaningless. What’s left?
There’s nothing to understand.
9)
Under certain external pressures
language begins to break down. The
lighthouse told me so. It calls out to me in
the early hours. Not by voice by drone.
I get up. Get dressed. Start the car and
drive to Dungeness. 2,3,4, sometimes 5
in the morning. I get out and listen to its
3 million bricks against the backdrop of the
100 billion stars of the milky way.
I am devastated. The self disintegrates.
Melting into the Geiger counter of the
constantly shifting stones.
The sea deposits objects of a similar size
and weight in the same troughs. A line of
bottles, a line of ropes, a line of driftwood.
Here lie the bones of a dog.
11)
We skim stones across
the surface of the sea
The first time we made time the
time we made the first
We Skimmed stones holding hands,
the surface of the sea
The rock is in my and, and the
rock is in my &
Our love
lake
a
like
Flows though
&
flows
through
Stephen Emmerson is the author of Comfortable Knives (KFS), Family Portraits, and Poetry Wholes (If P Then Q), The Journal of Baal (Veer), and Invisible Poems (ZimZalla). He also makes and exhibits poetry objects. More information can be found here: https://stephenemmerson.
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